Heaven is......

for me, the heaven is not the white place with fog around, the goldeen gates and the wings. maybe because i don't know what it feels like. i believe in everything that i think will be possible in this lifetime.

for me, heaven is reading VaPu while listening to Sandeep Khare.
for me, heaven is the perfect made cookie dough n the smell of fresh baked cookies.
for me, heaven is kissing right under niagara falls.
for me, heaven is winning a 20 dollar jackpot in Las Vegas.
for me, heaven is feeling the marble of Taj Mahal in hot sunny summer afternoon.
for me, heaven is seeing dolphins swim in mid ocean.
for me, heaven is unnameable colors of sea in Key West.
for me, heaven is witnessing seaside sunrise from my bed.
for me, heaven is standing in the middle of lighted Times Square at 2 pm and still find world go by.
for me, heaven is watching London from the London eye.
for me, heaven is visiting the house of first inspiration, Sherlock Holmes.
for me, heaven is walking along river theymes.
for me, heaven is marrying my mr. right and finding out he is actually mr. right.
for me, heaven is long drive on highway A1a in Florida.
for me, heaven is wandering in the old town St. Augustine.
for me, heaven is perfecting a recipe and adding it a personal touch.
for me, heaven is talking to best friend all night over a cup of hot chocolate.
for me, heaven is every feeling, every emotion, every smile which makes me grateful for having and living the life.

You can call me optimistic but i find pleasures in the small things.
because for me, every small pleasure is heaven.

Being Scared.......

Before marriage, I was a daredevil. I liked riding on racing bikes, sitting in the most dangerous rides in amusement parks, hiking and all sorts daring things. Then I got married. And within the minutes of 'subhmangal savadhan' I changed.

All of a sudden my heart started missing a beat even on stupid alladin ride in Disney. I didn't know what was the thing which made me go from warrior to woos within a matter of time.

Then something amazing happened. I was bit by an unknown creature from the sea. and when it was still unknown and I thought god forbid, if it's a snake which will kill me, it occurred to me. I always thought if I have a near death experience, i will think about lot of things and people, anyway I will be ready to die. but at that moment all I thought was who will take care of my beloved husband.

It's so amazing to know it's not the marriage which made me coward, it's the one live for makes the fear of dieing darker.